Thanks MariaSt. I do intend to persist for a while longer - I'm not ready to 'write off' the investment of 4 months+ in this treatment just yet. The one heartening thing to note from the studies (if I've understood this correctly) is that a significant number of people did not achieve their clearance until sometime between 4 months and 1 year of daily treatment. If this is so, it would seem to indicate that achieving demodex control can indeed be a very long-term process, and that there's hope yet that it may still pay off for me.
Saying that, it is much, much harder to cope with the setbacks at this stage of the treatment than it was earlier on. When I began soolantra, I mentally 'wrote-off' the following two months of my life - my expectation being that the worst of any flare would occur within this kind of timeframe. I even arranged my work schedule for minimal people-contact during this period. That mindset made getting through the expected early difficulties a relatively straightforward matter. Conversely, the urge to simply abandon treatment is much stronger at this point as I must admit that after 4 months, my hopes of a happy ending are lessened. I actually also think that the continuing recent flare-up I've suffered over the past month or so has been worse than anything that occurred earlier on. I'm wondering if the oiliness of my skin, itself caused by the soolantra, might be feeding my symptoms at this point? This is one reason that I'm very keen to get down to a maintenence level, though that doesn't seem wise right now. I did think that things were improving for a few days last week, but that didn't last long... Cry:
I'm just very confused right now, and I'm at a loss at to where I'd go if I do end up junking the soolantra. No treatment I've ever tried has brought me an acceptable long-term control of my symptoms. Oral antibiotics have probably been the best however I'm very reluctant to return to that method, having probably spent a cumulative 3-4 years of my life on them already. I also have a tendancy of flaring very badly whenever I come off them. Soolantra was therefore something of a last hope, and I fear I'll be back to square 1 if it doesn't work out...